ohhmy_peachey

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 12:32:21 GMT

new livejournal. CHRIS k so myspace is upgrading and tim sent me a message, so idk if he said he would or wouldnt come get me. but yeah i cant read it. so if tim ends up there or if someone wants to pick me up from NICEVILLE HIGH SCHOOL at 11, text me. akhdslka. text me anyways. iheartyoupeachcoffey.

there is something watching.

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 11:43:38 GMT

yesterday was fun. i went to the skatepark with cardiac, coffey, stefen, and my little scott. that was after cardiac got kicked out, and called his dad a terrorist. coffey asked me to be his girlfriend:). cardiac got more ink done. coffey and i talked for a long time. i told him everything i ever could about me that i remembered at that moment. then, they went and applied for jobs. even coffey. :) we went to the mall and met up with april and all them fun people. went to hungry howies, ashleigh showed up. she wins, im not going to work there. wtf ever. the day before that i hungout with my monique and my jocelin. lindsey for a little bit. mo-mo & jocelin thought i was on crack, ha. because i was a candy addict. iheartthosegirlssoeffingmuch. ummm today im going to school. and i think im staying in tonight. to spend time with my mom. monique and jocelin and everyone is leaving tomorrow for shreveport. ily.

asdjlakdlkahdlakhd i♥L1Z!

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 12:27:33 GMT

sooo in a sum last night was pretty much my favorite. =) i got kisses from a boy that i wish lived closer. and this boy, i get to hangout with him today at 10. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is SO WEIRD. you live in PCOLA. butttttttt lol icantstopsmiling. kbye. ha.

FROM HERE ON OUT IS GOING TO BE AMAZING.♥

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 10:45:34 GMT

I WANT MY USB CORD.

And for it to WORK.

I have pictures and SIGNS to upload.

Bleh.

Ill probably see jade today inbetween his time with Kara.

asjkldhalkshd.

Jade=Upload of pictures=Love.

K Um.

Jocelin is the cutest girl. I like talking to her.

I miss Lara. A bunch.

I kinda miss Mallory :]

Last night, we went to Tisa's and Patrick+Jade played. There was so much smoke it was ridiculous. They did an acoustic bongo set. Ha, Patrick tried making up a song on his last one about cleaning a fish.

:) I love the people I have been hanging out with.

OH GUESS WHAT.

Yeah, I'm graduating this year. :) Super sweet.

kimgoingtogogetready.

LOVE.

breathtaking.

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 11:11:19 GMT

last night was pure amazing.

the fall of troy was more than i expected.

bear vs. shark was not good from what i heard, so i didnt miss much by eating.

fear before the march of flames is pretty much amazing.

i didnt think i would like them.

thank you for everyone that made this weekend so great.

hope to have the same fun next weekend.

:):)

PRETTY MUCH.

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 00:17:14 GMT

I HAD FUN LAST NIGHT.

:) WHOOOPS.

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 02:36:41 GMT

pretty much,

im in a mood,

where i want to talk to chris'

and meet up with him at the mall tomorrow.

adalsdjlakshdlashdlasj.

kmallory+casey+sarah= loads of fun :)

oh and jesse called me.

didnt have my cell on me. whoops.

oh and everyone is at mullet festival,

i hate that place. gross. no.

mallory is coming to get me afterwards,

i imagine midnight-ish.

spendning the night at her house.

in the AM going to pcola.

then the elysian fields show.

blahblahblah.

I WANT A BOY.

A REAL BOY.

WHO CAN BE IN A RELATIONSHIP.

where art' thou?

there's something about it.

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 18:44:14 GMT

Ever since sunday,

I have done something everyday.

I love my Crestview kids<333.

The rest of the week has involved the guys from The Elysian Fields

++Mike Gill

LAST SUNDAY.

Mallory was leaving to go back to school.

She be tuff' yo.

TUESDAY.

MICHELLE IS BACK :)

Look at those bums.

I promote in bathrooms too.

I only hangout with gangsters.

WENDSDAY.

Torpedo?

I cant wait for braces. LKDSLKajs/.

THURSDAY.

Brian got messy at Sonic :)

Chelsea&Brian.

Cute.

Patrick likes to wrestle girls.

Kat!e

THURSDAY.

:-)!

DONT

EVEN.

Jason Parr and I talk before the show.

What a pretty girl!

Yay for fog&no flash.

Yay for Jon bringing Leash&I to the show.

Yay for music.

Cool Nick brings socks.

"So, there was this squid, and it was attached to Brian. It wanted to mate with him".

Sonic with Lindsey&Jon after is fun.

TODAY.

Mikey fakes blowfish faces.

:) Ha.

H.I.M=EW

double u-tee-eff.

No flash.

My hair is getting blonde.

And I dont like it. :[

im going to start again.

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 11:22:12 GMT

so i woke up this morning with a text. from either brian or jesse, saying, "next week we gona hang" at 1:08am. but im booked. all weekend. pensacola tomorrow with erik&steven for promoting and stuff at the mall. sunday im going to talle with jon brown++ 654321 other people. (fear before, bear vs. shark + the fall of troy) <3 last night.. no, this whole week, has been sweet.

posted on myspace too.

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 23:20:15 GMT

today was weird.

i loved every second i got to spend with lara.

that was the best part.

but there was so much emotion i saw&felt throughout the day.

josh felt today how i felt 2 weeks ago.

i almost cried.

i found somethings that made me right in my assumptions.

lili lied to me.

period.

why would you have drawings on your binder if you dont like that person?

why would you write in your binder

" ____ <3's ____ "

if you didn't?

why would you have signs they made you?

lili, i hope you read this.

i trusted you.

i did cry today due to what i saw.

it's my own fault.

i didnt have to look.

i didnt have to KEEP looking once i saw one thing.

but i knew there was more. and i was right.

noone saw me cry. and i liked that.

why cant i just drop him like he did me?

why cant i just find someone knew and STOP comparing them?

why does it feel like wont be able to trust anyone else?

because my feelings were sincere.

they were never once questioned or put into jeapordy by another person.

but thats the difference between him and I.

i feel like im falling apart again.

today when i reached home, i called ashleigh.

she didnt seem too enthused about anything.

i dont like to hear her sad.

when she hurts, i hurt.

no joke.

to top this all off,

im begining to have feelings for someone.

someone who isnt involved with anyone else.

so, their available.

but.

im so scared to admit what is happening in my head to anyone.

im scared of being rejected.

im scared of being taken advantage of.

im scared of not being good enough..again.

i wish i could live in a house with lara, & ashleigh.

they are there for me no matter what.

at least it feels that way.

mallory too.

i remember when matt broke up with me,

everyone jumped at the occasion to be my friend.

everyone was so worried about me.

and now that i can smile,

its like "oh whatever".

i feel so terrible right now.

its like, no matter what i do,

ill never be enough.

not for my parents, not for my friends, not for a relationship.

i put everything i ever could into my relationship with matt.

you all that know me, know that.

but,

wasnt

enough.

i was supposed to hangout with thomas ashleigh & josh tonight.

i just called and cancelled.

why am i crying.

its like im doing this to myself.

i CAN move on.

i know that i can.

im just more petrified than ever.

and im hurting so many people right now.

i dont want to cause people hurt.

i hope you beleive me when i say that.

i dont want anyone to feel like i did.

or even do.

im hurting josh moore.

im hurting jon brown.

im hurting myself.

it feels like im watching my life from the outside

and im taking notes.

this makes me glad.

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 23:42:30 GMT

Brooke&I are on good terms.

It's been 2 days and counting.

And I feel normal.

Pretty sweet.

ksjadhk.

i have to go.

you know

to the

gym.

i talked to him, and i learned what i already knew♥

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 10:23:00 GMT

all i can say is SATURDAY will be amazing. nothing // anyone will mess it up. AT ALL. and i cannot wait. mmm.

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 11:09:40 GMT

yesterday was better than i thought. i was siiiccccckkk. so i layed down. then i went jogging. that made it kinda better. i think one of the key points of last night was talking to my madre. i explained to her my weight. and that im not eating dinner this week. so i kinda had control for once? i didnt want it, i just wanted to explain things to her. she said okay. then i told her i dont want to really consume much at all. she said how low are you trying to go i said 105 she said well i said you could get down to 103 so okay. weird. THEN this stupid stupid girl ha has the nerve to IM me saying all this junk. (all this junk inside her trunk). psh. i love my girls. they all stook up for me. WHATS SHE GOING TO DO COME DOWN FROM PENSACOLA//MILTON?! do it. :) but malia and i went and saw WAITING with her dad last night at 7:45. it was funny, ha malia and i made it funnier. i had to sit next to a couple. sdflkja;lsjf;als ha. malia got the end seat. we sang all the way home. it was pretty sweet. malia makes me laugh, A LOT. ha. IM IN LOVE YOU GUYS!! with the weather. im so happy i didnt get rid of my black/white/pink jacket/blazer. i normally get rid of EVERYTHING after its season. but i loved this thing. oh and im in love with my hair. the brown is getting lighter and it looks natural. ha. the black turned a dark brown. but i like that better. k well mallory got my letter, sweet. ill be seeing her in about 2 days. ha. kwellihavetogocleanupmyroom. :):):):) kbye. OHOH& ASHLEIGH haha. remember when we put peaches on my page? they played that in the movie. i thought of you<3333.

my thoughts are collected, and ill wait in line for your time.

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 20:05:10 GMT

im so sick. all i ate yesterday was a bowl of cheese grits at waffle house. and the day before that was a banana. today. i had a 6inch sub. now i regret it. because i feel more nauseated than anything. yesterday was good. in my pajamas i went and gave brittany grapes:). ashleigh came over around 12, i did her hair. ha, kind of. we bonded both yesterday and the day before that more than ever. i called matt. to my suprise he picked up, i told him i would call him from the show at 11. i decided not to, i figuered he would be out partying or with lili. plus, im not going to look dumb. please. ha. so many niceville kids& my two favorite crestview kids were there in at the show in PC. i met cool nick. MALLORY CAME AND GOT ME FROM MY HOUSE:):). it was myself, mallory, zach, linsdey alford, jon brown, josh & geoff in her car. we sang the whole time there<33333. kinda got lost. when we got there, we saw jon clark&jason parr. oh how i love jason's hugs. lindsey and i went with jason and jon to some mexican resturant. JON ATE A TAMALE. mr.im a vegetarian. back to the show. i only saw one cute boy the entire time i was there. :-/ steven and i talked a WHOLE bunch. maylene=love. Dallas Taylor put his arm around me when he sang<3333. (davis taylor=ex singer//screamer for old underoath&singer for maylene) ha, mmm. maylene is pretty much the band i did NOT think i would enjoy. turns out, they were my favorite. we were supposed to go eat with chasing victory&maylene after the show, but the bassist of one of them had work in the morning. mm. so we went to waffle house. then we went to some beach. steven asked me to be his anti-homecoming date. then i slept on the way home. i passed out as soon as i got to mallorys. this morning we went to subway in destin. and now im sick. gross. ha and mallory has my finch shirt. and owes me a letter.:) kwell i feel all ew. btw*** chris, come to the show this weekend;! pensacola is not far. come to it. or the one on the 30th. its a halloween show, at the brooks beal center in FWB. kbye.

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 17:13:00 GMT

great. mallory thinks i dont want to hangout with her. matt talks about every other girl. except me. ashleigh is coming over in a bit to do her hair. i highly doubt im going to be able to go tonight. seeing how my mom wants me home by 12. not after. so. it's a toss up. i want to hangout with mallory so badly. i wish she knew that. :-/

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 23:45:18 GMT

AWE. IM SO HAPPY. :) ha.

i need you here like you've always been.

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 17:21:37 GMT

i cant stop thinking about him. today i am COMPLETLY cleaning my room. im only half way through. i found so many notes. so many pictures. i talked to ashleigh on the phone. telling me how she wants to move in with josh at the end of this year. josh//matt//levee&erik. :-/ that was supposed to be me. but i need to move on. he has. to brittany. and to lily. ((josh's sister)). i cannot wait until im adult. till we are all adults. everything will be different. so much different. but until that time comes... .

3 more days.

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 10:13:24 GMT

i've figured it out.

at least i think i have.

i surround myself with people that care about me.

happy.

i'm home for more than 2 hours.

sleep.

i sleep so i don't have to think.

thinking makes me realize how terribly messed up people can be.

the people i trust i count on one hand.

i dyed my hair and it looks much better.

hmmm.

i still miss matthew.

but i think i always will.

he's the first person i ever fell in love with.

i can't forget him, nor would i like to.

i hope he's omgeERxZZzZzZ;1;!:!:! happy.

im sure that everything going on will go over wonderfully with mrs.karen. sweet. :):):)

psh.

today im going kayaking with jade.

tomorrow=tanning//gym//GROUNDED

NO HOMECOMING.

my mom grounded me from it seeing how, you know.

she's wonderful.

she purchased me hair dye&makeup.

just to let everyone know,

im not going to post numberous entries telling you how im eating

how much i weigh.

i think i pretty much despise many people.

:-/ im just aggravated.

i know my conclusions are correct.

whether or not you admit it.

josh moore makes me feel important

"katie, in time i hope u realize that matt isnt good enough for you".

copied from his away message. :)

kwellimgoingtogoandmakekennyacake.

later.

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 02:29:42 GMT

'oooo i dont WANT to be in love. i dont WANT to get married'

NIGGA.

was i PICKING out wedding rings?!

HECK NO.

mm.

my hair is dark.

and WAY better than blonde.

ohoh & i have friends. like JADE.

xballerxcorex: loveya

see?

and mikey.

and MALLORY<33333333333.

and jaron.

and alicia.

ALICIA

and meryl.

and MALIA.

so go die.

oh josh too :).

bitches.

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 10:18:40 GMT

yesterday

i went to sleep at 5:30 PM.

and i just woke up and it's 5:14AM.

12 hours of sleep.

i cant get this out of my head.

you would think people would understand.

you would think that i would stop feeling like this.

but thats what you get for thinking.

:-/

i feel like a complete and total fool.

and it's i'm too far into this,

to just let go and drop his name.

breaking my own heart;

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 11:05:07 GMT

This weekend was perfect

Pictures today.

There is only one thing that could have made it better.

Well, one person.

And I miss them more than life itself.

BTW* My journal is public now.

So they can read it.

:-/ mkbyebye.

my gift to you my heart was yours.

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 10:43:13 GMT

matthew

im sorry.

im sorry i came to Crestview last night.

im going to get over you.

im going to have to.

but your all i want.

all i wanted to do last night,

standing on that tower,

i wanted to jump.

i wanted you to touch me.

to hold my hand,

to hold me,

but you didn't.

im in love with you.

----------------------------------

yep

so i went to crestviews school band practice.

mallory picked me up.

we retrieved erik.

it was so scary.

i was afraid of matt and what he would say.

but he didnt want to talk.

he did, but it wasn't matt.

he apologized and said he was an asshole.

thats not what i wanted to hear.

all i wanted was the truth.

i dont even know what that is anymore.

he told me he never lied to me.

but he also told me, i was the one for him.

& that he would never leave me.

i wish he would talk to me.

i called this morning, like i used to everyday.

i left him a voicemail.

telling him i was sorry.

and that i still loved him.

i dont want to look like a fool you guys.

but please dont try making me meet new boys.

im not ready.

i wont be for at least a year.

unless i find someone on my own.

i dont have a lot of friends.

and those that i contain are great.

im just keeping my gaurd up.

its not going down again.

never again will i have sex.

beleive me or don't.

i want true love.

i want matt.

why can't i just leave him alone?

that boy is amazing.

when i called this morning

i wished him luck on everything.

in WSBU, with his Mom, with School, with everything.

I told him i wanted to be there to experience it all with him.

but he doesnt want me to be there.

i just want to know what i did wrong.

i want to know why he couldnt tell me what he was thinking.

i was so honest with him about everything.

he just couldnt have a relationship.

that kills me.

everyone tells me to move on.

or to do something to make him jealous.

NO.

i HAD a mature relationship with him.

im not going to go back on that

and act like a 13 year old.

im going to give him time.

if by december things remain the same,

then i'm moving.

to Indiana.

matt was the only thing i was fighting for to stay here.

i was going to graduate THIS year

a year EARLIER for matt.

now whats my motivation?

im going to graduate in 07' with my class

at southbends highschool now i assume.

------------------------------------------

matt

if you read this

i just want you to be happy.

and i want to be there for you.

im giving you time and space.

i wont call you.

i wont email you.

i wont anything.

you need to think about all of this.

im not saying you will come back to me.

or anything of that nature.

i just want you to think this whole thing through.

i love you.

& when you are ready

please contact me.

why

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 09:59:01 GMT

matt you are everything

everything is you

you're everywhere

i cant do this.

there is not a single way i can handle this.

its 3am. i cant sleep.

why wasnt i enough

what could i have done differently

im sorry i wasnt enough

all i ever wanted was to be with you.

im in love with you

this isnt making sense

i cant stop crying

this is my fault

all of it

i had to have done something

please dont do this

please.

all i ever wanted was you.

thats it.

i hate imagining you with someone else.

you pushed me

i had a dream last night

i dreamed that this while thing was a dream.

i only slept for 15 minutes.

i shouldnt be doing this.

damnit i trusted you.

you told me you were different.

you promised me.

i have nothing.

and all i want is you.

i miss you

and im so sorry if i did this.

you guys please help me.

i know i dont want it

but i need people around me.

im sorry if i pushed you away

but you ruined me.

you say you hate jon

well your just like him.

and that kills me.

love

you

i love you

I LOVE YOU

i never didnt mean that.

i meant it every time.

i fell in love with a boy.

i want that story you wrote as well.

why did you have to do this

i planned so much around you

why did you have to lie

if there was someone else

why couldnt you tell me

i told you everything from the get go

you knew i would not be able to handle this.

and i cant.

this is the begining of the end.

i want to go to indiana and leave this place.

this isnt fair.

i never lied to you.

why do i deserve this

im sorry matthew.

im sorry i wasnt enough.

i katie peachey hardcore danced and my hand was swollen :):):):)

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 22:33:11 GMT

Toodddaaayyyy;

I was mad sick.

I had taken not one but 2 stackers at dinner last night with Matt&HisParents.

I was up until 2. Ha.

And then I slept until 6 this morning.

I went to school,

Took 2 more stackers,

& Not only did I feel sick,

But

I was shaking, and cold, and I had goosebumbs.

So I left when Malia did and we slept until 2 ish.

Jade came over, and I fixed him up.

I cut his hair like, ha 4 inches.

It looks pretty sweet, its a fohawk.

I got to meet Kara.

She's a sweetheart.

Yeah but I took my extentions out. Ha.

I'll get them put back in for homecoming.

But after that, no more.

Its blah.

SO FAKE:1;;1;;!!!

Anyways.

I don't get to see Matt until Saturday.

Which blows.

But IM FREE FRIDAY.

Saturday=Matt

Allday&AllNight.

Sunday=Church by MYSELF ha.

Followed by NOTHING.

So. I need plans niggas.

Who wants to go to Pensacola?

Ha, noone reads this, what am I talking about.

kthnx.

ahahah. I hate that.

"KTHNX"

I do it for fun.

Anyways.

I do need to go.

Not really, but computer=lame.

Malia is such a computer addict.

lol :):):):)

peace out niggas.

<3333333

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm;

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 22:21:06 GMT

ha. heeerrrreee.

i like to draw hearts on my feet :-) lara doesnt :-(

sup @ fat cheeks;

sup @ teeter totters are more fun than moshing;

it was a lot of fun.

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